I want to give more to my readers. I will be working on sharing more of my lessons and trials and memories. If there is anything else you who know me want me to share please comment and tell me
Well I have to say this past week was full of surprises. Good and amazing surprises. I can’t talk about them all but I can say that things are gonna be alright. Not that I ever doubted it. It’s just nice when things go well. I also this next week should bring me a bit of money in so I can pay some things. I don’t want to jinx anything so I won’t say much til it happens. Also waiting on my grandson to be born any minute now. My son Tyler and his wife Lexie are having a boy. Due date was Friday. So we are waiting for that call. Well I hope you all have a great week. Blessed be.
We had a great weekend. Very chill and fun. Friday night we went to Froggy Bottom bar and Rob and Danny the maintenance guy at his dads shit pool. We stayed til 1. I saw a few old friends. Also found out my old dance teacher Bonnie had passed away 9 months ago. Very sad. Last night we hung out next door at Lacey’s. We had a few beers and just had a fun night. Today I got to babysit my granddaughter Josephine. Very nice weekend. Good friends and family. Definitely on my gratitude list this week.
Just wanted to share a few pics. Mostly of my renovations but a few just for fun
I wanted to share some of what I’m studying with y’all. Chakras is the things for now. So I want to start with the root chakra. Color is red. Let me just share some info and a meditation with this post.
Well that was a fun weekend. I spent all day Friday with my oldest son Brandon. We ran around town listened to music and laughed all day. We had dinner together and I read his cards. Saturday we went to the baby shower and had great food and got to play with the babies. Afterwards we went to the casino. It was Brandon’s first time and Robs second. We didn’t win any money but had a really great time. Brandon left today 😢. So thankful to have had such a great time with him.
So my oldest son Brandon is coming to spend the weekend. We will be going to my little Josephine’s 1st birthday party and my daughter Adriana’s baby shower. Number 3. Another boy to add the 2 she already has. Then having dinner with my second oldest Tyler in natchitoches. Somewhere in there we are gonna try to go to the casino too. It’s going to be super fun and super tiring. Pictures to come.
So as I sit here at the end of the day with a candle lit in a candle holder I made. Looking around at the progress I’ve made to my little home. With my boyfriend here and happy with me. It all is a beautiful life. I feel so comfortable and secure in my decisions and choices. I am truly happy and at peace at this moment. I have the things that matter most and I have them because I chose them. 3 years ago I began a new life on my own. I have to say I’m so thankful for my mistakes and strength to overcome them. I hope I can show just one person that you can overcome tragedy and become a success. No one has to live in the tragedy forever. Thank you to everyone who has been a light for me.
Well at least that is what I was called today. Let me start at the beginning. I was driving along in town and there was this girl looked liked she was barely in her twenties walking down the road. She appeared to be in pain and having a hard time walking. So I stopped. She came to the car and I asked if she was ok. She said no she needed a ride to a friends house. So she got in. I asked her what happened. She said abuse, her boyfriend. I dropped her off and left her my phone number in case she needed anything. I went about my business when she called again and asked if I could take her somewhere else. So I did. I told her we needed to go to the sheriffs office and file a report. She agreed. When we got there things seemed a bit off when we asked to file a report. Pretty soon one of the officers came out and informed her that she needed to stay put because an OPC was issued. It’s and order for medical examination for the mental stability of someone. She said she had just been to the hospital and checked out no issues. Well either way she was police escorted back to be evaluated. The officer who was helping us is the one who called me a Good Samaritan. I don’t consider myself that really. I was just giving a ride to someone in need. Long story short she was released from the hospital and called me to take her to yet another friend. I left her there feeling good about the woman and the situation. I’m sure there is more to the story. Always is. But without judgement I wanted her to know people care and it’s not ok to be abused. For now the story is over but I have a feeling this won’t be the end of it. I’ll keep y’all posted.
Today is a full moon. I’m letting go of my past job and moving forward. I hate starting over but it has never been a bad thing. Today I got to babysit my grand daughter Josephine. Also found out my new kitten Lucy is not a girl. He is a boy. We decided on Loki. Wtf for real.
Yes I am currently unemployed. I decided working at a place that condemns you for doing the right thing is just not where I want to be. Also working for someone who is verbally abusive everyday is not a good environment. So I am currently jobless. I feel peace about it and I know it will be just fine. I have a lot of options open right now so I will keep on keeping on and handle things one step at a time.
I’m so lucky to have such great kids. Flowers, gifts, lunch and a painting from my grand babies. Then Saturday night treat at the casino by my sweet boyfriend. I do have a great life. Now back to renovating. I have my bunk done and my bathroom vanity. I bought lower kitchen cabinets yesterday and started staining them tonight. Can’t wait to have them done and my kitchen sink in. Well gotta go get ready for bed and do one more coat of stain.
Well I’m now in Anacoco. It’s a really nice place, quiet and private. I have some peace again. I missed that. I’m back reading cards again and celebrating my holidays and doing all the stuff I used to do. I went through a rough patch. And got off track like we all do. But the important thing is that I’m back up and on the right track again. The main lesson I learned from this is that you can’t be around the people places and things that are bad for you. It’s not safe or smart. So if you are having a struggle don’t give up because you can get through it.
Due to the crazy circumstances of my life I’m moving again. But this is definitely for the best. People places and things. Very important 3 words. This time it will be my own address with just me there. And a lease and rent paid. Oh yeah and internet. Lol. So I’m almost ready to load up my little home and kick rocks again. This will all be told in bits and pieces so hang in there. It gets better but first the details of the worst.
Well a lot has happened since February. Not sure where to begin. I can say tho that no one is perfect and we all make mistakes. I cannot go into detail right now. But just know that if I had not recognized the path in front of me it could have ended very badly. However I was able to see my errors and walk away.
Well I decided instead of buying a new rv I will renovate the one I own. So I’ve started with the things that don’t cost much first. Paint. I’ve started paints the inside walls and it already feels better. Removing the bunks will be my next project. I will keep updating as I go. And will do pictures when I’m done.
So it’s Aquarius season. How many of you are Aquarius? I never had much interaction with this particular sign. Until of course I met Rob. His birthday is today as well as his twin sister. In the office there are 2 more. My boss keeps joking saying an Aquarius is a very aloof person. I tend to agree. Very chill almost hippy like and for the most part they seem and feel lost a lot. LOL. I am not the most compatible with this sign but also not incompatible. I’m glad I know Rob and have him in my life at least in some capacity. For now. So to all you Aquarius’ Happy Birthday to you and your spirit and personality are indeed appreciated.
Is a connection enough to keep something alive? Not in the sense of a living being. But in the sense of a relationship? Sometimes all we truly crave is connection. It is a vital component to our relationships. Without it can we survive? Sometimes though a connection may not be enough. How deep is the connection? Is it enough to sacrifice certain expectations or behaviors? These are all questions that may or may not come up for us all. If the connection is enough then where do we begin with it. I think maybe it is a realization that it is there is a first step. Then we have to determine the depth and power and decide if with time it will be enough to withstand the difficulties we encounter. Slow down and let the universe do it’s magic I suppose. Or not. As for me it is something…
We all go backwards sometimes. Is it a reason to continue backwards. Never. When we mess up we have 2 choices. Give up and throw in the towel. Or. Get up and shake it off understand why it happened and continue on our path. Mistakes happen. Not if but when. It’s our response that decides who we are. I have decided in spite of my mistakes I’m a strong woman who will not throw in the towel. I will keep on my path and know that I’m still a great person and that I’ve worked hard to get where I am. Nothing will take that from me. Nothing. So for anyone who messed up just shake it off. You can do this. Look at you. You are amazing.
Well I’m sure you guessed it. I have power. Hot water and all. Thank goddess. No really. Last night was the my new moon intention practice. I usually set 5 intentions. This time I set one. To have power today. I put all my energy and manifestations into that one intention. By lunch time my power was on. I love my craft and I love my power. *pun intended. Lol. I’m truly loving it here. Can’t wait to start on my renovation and outdoor decorating. Also can’t wait to share it all with you. Soo stay tuned.
This is one of my goals for this year. I want to be independent financially physically mentally and I definitely want to learn some diy and home improvement skills as well. So to start it off I bought a new door handle and lock for my rv door. After one lost screw an hour giving up 3 times and lots of cussing I installed it completely by myself. Now for anyone who knows me. I’m a Diva and that was a huge success for me. I’m super proud of myself. So on to more things. I’m gonna be ok 👌 oh yeah I found the screw. Lol
So I’m in central Louisiana. It snowed last night and is currently colder than a witches tit. I should know lol. I still don’t have power to my pole but am grateful for the extension cord power I do have. It’s pretty cold but I do have a heater that blows warm. Things in my life emotionally are also currently cold with just enough warmth to keep me going. I’m adjusting to this life and very much like my goddess’ story all things must die before being reborn. I have embraced this time of cold and death of certain things to make way for the beautiful spring that’s awaits in the next chapter. The moon is once again almost new. Time for setting new intentions and rising slowly back up. So with all that said I’m going to bed where it’s nice and warm with a hope and plan for a bright warm future.
Well things are better. I’m settling a bit. Still waiting for the power pole to be turned on. Any day now. I did start working for my former boss attorney again. Just after hours stuff but it keeps me busy and from thinking too much. Everything else is going ok. Time of course is the best healer. I’m still not happy with the way things turned out but I know that sometimes things are not in our control. We can’t change anyone. Not can we make anyone love us or fight for us. I’m accepting that and believing that I deserve more than that. I knew it once and it started to get away from me but never again. I have some really great people in my life and will be just fine. Anyway y’all have a great night and love yourselves.
Let’s start this year off right. With love hope and peace.
So tonight is the last full moon of 2020. Last night was my last night in Hornbeck. Things did not go well last night. The night ended with some finality and lots of tears. This morning I woke up and decided that that it was time to go. When your decisions are in line with the universe things fall right into place. It is now 24 hours after a horrible night and I’m sitting in my rv at a new location. It’s so peaceful and quiet. The vibe is positive. I’m still sad but that just means that my feelings were honest and true. As I go to bed I will release the things that no longer serve me and embrace another new chapter in my book of life.
Well today was not the best day. My dad passed away this morning at 11:00. He went to the hospital Tuesday with covid and pneumonia. Today he took his last breath. I have not had a relationship with him at all the past year. My whole life has pretty much been me trying to accept the fact he was never a dad to me at all. We had some moments that were good but the times I needed a dad the most he was absent. The last time we spoke things were said to both of us that were not good. He died alone in the hospital. Do I have regrets? Sure. But they won’t consume me or make me feel like a bad person. Shit happens. We all deal with rejection our own way. I’m sad he’s gone. Truly sad. More sad for those left to deal with his absence. I dealt with his absence a long time ago. I’m still numb from the news and hate he was alone. I am really just lost right now with everything going on in my world. This year has ended with a lot of finality and closed doors. I refuse however to allow myself to be bitter or negative. I will process all of this and come out better once again.
Well Christmas is over. Still have a couple gatherings for gifts but for the most part it is done. I even put my tree away already. It was a strange holiday. Things are very calm between me and rob at the moment. We are getting along at this moment. We are still separated and living separate but we seem to be better this way. Not sure what the next step will be. I did find somewhere to move to but not sure if I want to take that step yet. Just getting through the holidays for now and trying to stay happy. Grace is here and that has been awesome. We get to pick up her boyfriend tomorrow. So that is exciting. Or should I say her fiancé. Well I’m gonna go shower and relax for the evening.
Just want y’all to know I’m still here. Don’t have much to say just blah. Not the best time for me. I guess I need to go get with my goddesses and find some peace. Having a hard time. I’ll try again tomorrow. But even the ones who always seem good aren’t and it’s ok.
The first time I saw David I feel in complete school girl crush. He was the cutest thing ever. He lived out in the hill country in spring branch about 15 miles from Cathy and Mark at the land. He worked at the telemarketing place and also at the Exxon gas station out there near his house. He lived with his dad and step mom. Actually above their garage was an apartment that he stayed in. That apartment is still there. I used to go out there and hang out with him until he decided I should stay. I stayed there for a month sneaking in and out of the apartment so his parents didn’t find out. One day his dad asked him when he was gonna bring the girl out of the apartment to meet them. Of course they knew all along
Well today was much better aside from the butterflies in my stomach most of the day. It’s just me out here right now. He went to work out of town for a couple days. His choice. I have to say I’ve enjoyed the quiet and time for just me. I cooked a wonderful meal. Fried chicken potatoes corn. Enjoyed some tv. Then did a new project. Today was the new moon. I will do a ritual before bed for new intentions to finish this year. I have peace today. It feels really good.
Well it’s been a week. I can say my decision has been confirmed more than a couple times this week. Never have I felt as dismissed as I do this time. Sucks big ass. I did however spend some time with good friends today. Had an amazing meal and read some tarot cards. Much needed away time. Unfortunately I had to come back to this harsh reality. I now have 30 days to be off the property here. Another confirmation. I’ve had way shorter and way less serious relationships where I was at least fought for. Better to know it now rather than later. Anyway. I will walk into the dark again. The unknown and terrifying future. I will be better for it all I know. Just gotta go thru the shit storm first.
As you know I’m struggling a bit and going thru some life changing things. I saged my house tonight. It felt so great. I feel a piece of this weight lifted. I drew an oracle card. The card was Hecate. Let me share what my message was.
So I went to live with my friend Kristen and her family. Her mom took me in and literally became mom to me. Her husband mark also became my daddy. They gave me love and a home and a sense of belonging. Shortly after graduation Cathy and mark moved out to the property they owned in the hill country. They had a small shack that we all used to hang out at and camp with all of our friends in high school. Me and Kristen stayed at the house in town. I worked as a waitress at Olive Garden for a while. I even went to college for a semester. Wasn’t really my thing. I got a job at a telemarketing company. It was here I met the cutest baby face guy. David Wayne Dewinne…..
By the way marbach is the name of the road we lived off in San Antonio
So as the year comes to an end so does another chapter of my life. My relationship of a year and 3 months has ended. My decision but his choices. I will not go into detail at this point it’s too soon and the hurt is anger right now. I will finish my story about my awesome trip to San Antonio. It was a wonderful time. Just wanted to say this out loud it seems to feel better and also more final. 😢.
I moved to San Antonio the summer of 1988. My mom stepdad and brother were here. My mom and stepdad managed mobile home parks. They were running a park in N military dr. I had a rough relationship with my mom as most teenage girls do. I started my senior year of high school at John jay high school. This is where I met my first husband Jason. We had a group of friends called the brew crew. Hopefully on this trip I will get to visit one of the guys this trip. Stay tuned for that ☺️. But back to high school… we all used to party at either my house or Jason’s house. We had some great times. I graduated by some miracle in 89. I went thru some rough patches after this. Me and Jason broke up. I ended up dating another guy which ended with me trying to kill myself. I spent a week in a hospital. When I got out I ended up having a huge fight with my mom and I left and went and lived with my best friend Kristen and her family….
So before I tell my story about my ex husband. I will go back a bit further into my life and tell that first. The reason is because we are heading to San Antonio today and I will be exactly where this part of my life happened. I’m excited to go. My oldest son lives there and we are spending thanksgiving there. So I will be writing a lot the next few days.
So I recently did a reading for myself. The main thing I got from it was that there is a huge part of my past I need to let go of. I think I have but then this card slapped me in the face. My most recent husband and I had a very terrible end to something I thought was finally my forever. I was told through that reading that I needed to tell the story of that part of my life. At least enough of it to speak my heart and by doing so to release it one session at a time. im not sure how it will go but I will begin and see how far I can get. And hopefully find the closure I need.
So as I am preparing for the new moon I find a new moon meditation on Kali. I turn it on and pull my oracle cards to pull one for tonight as I am learning them. Out of the deck I pull … you guessed it Kali. So now I need to go do some study and meditation on her meanings. Nothing happens by chance, so this is definitely a sign.
So Grace is my youngest child out of 5. She turned 18 this year, graduated from high school and joined the army. She graduated basic in September and is in school for linguistics in Monterey Ca. Today, she had her tonsils removed. Surgery. By herself. My poor girl. She is fine of course but I hate that I can’t be there to take care of her. She called like 5 times and I love that. As her mom I am sooo thankful for the relationship we have in spite of all the challenges we have endured and all the mistakes I made. I am so glad that I have the opportunity to have her love. Through addiction toxic marriages and legal issues she continues to love me. I know this is because I made changes. Removed negativity and put in the work to be a better person. If you are struggling in any area of your life you can change and fix things. It’s never too late. You just have to believe that you are good enough and find the things that give you peace. Don’t ever give up on yourself. You are all you have. And let me tell you that is enough. More than enough. 🥰
Month 11 of this crazy year. This month I want to focus on the present, the now. Everyone is in such a hurry to get this year over with in hopes that next year will be better. Instead of waiting for better can’t we just stop and find the good things that are all around us right now. Yes it’s been a challenging year. But if you take a moment I bet you can find 10 things out of the past 10 months that have been amazing. Let’s try…1. My boyfriend Rob. We made our 1 year and I’m grateful to have him in my life. 2. My kids are all doing amazing for themselves. All 5 are successful and are growing up to be awesome people. 3. I got a new job that I love and I make more money. 4. I bought a new car all by myself!!!! 5. I completed my probation and am free. Huge accomplishment. 6. We survived the hurricanes and covid with no serious repercussions. 7. Went to Renaissance, the place I love and started new traditions. 8. I’ve made some new friends whom I treasure and healed old relationships and have peace with myself. 9. My health is good no issues. 10. I’ve grown in my spirituality and have begun new divinations and feel empowered to move on to higher levels of oneness with nature. See that wasn’t too hard. Now you try…
So my daughter bought me my first deck of oracle cards. Different from tarot as they are more personal. She bought me the Goddess power deck. It is a 52 card deck of different goddesses. Already it has touched me spiritually. Recently Alanis morisette came out with a new album. One of the songs on the album is “Her”. It’s about the goddesses in her life who are always there and love her unconditionally. The 3 she mention in the song are Kali Shakti and Mary. As I opened the book to read about the cards the author mentions Kali and how she wasn’t going to include her in the deck. Then Kali spoke to her and through another person to her again. She did include her. The other 2 from the song are also in this deck. As I looked thru the deck a lot of my favorites were in there. But most importantly Persephone and her mother Demeter. Wow. This deck was made for me and I’m touched before I even use it. I love that. Stay tuned as I post some of the cards I choose. Thank you Grace. You are truly my baby witch.
These three things are soooo important and I hope that you don’t wait as long as me to achieve them. I spent most of my life not knowing who I was. I blended into whoever I was around. I craved acceptance from the people I put on the pedestal at the time. Boyfriends friends school mates older siblings whoever I looked up to. I never felt accepted and I definitely didn’t love myself. I spent my life a codependent putting everyone else above me. If only I did enough someone would love me enough. When I was 45, after attempting suicide I ended up in a mental facility where I was put on an anti depressant. Changed my life. I was diagnosed with severe depression. That was the moment I started to find who I was and I started to realize I was ok. I spent the next 3 years healing and learning who I was. And now at 49 I can say that I’m pretty amazing and I love myself. If you feel depressed don’t live with it and be lost. I promise you are amazing too.
I have to say that even as an adult friends are such a crucial and important part of our lives. I can say that other than my kids my friends are more important to me and have been there more for me than most of my family. Over the weekend I spent time with some awesome people. People I’ve known for over 10 years. one of them I haven’t seen in almost 8 years and the friendship is just as strong as it was. Maybe more so even now. The other is someone who has truly been there through the worst of times and the best. I know I can count on any of them if I ever needed anything and I would do the same for them. Family isn’t nessesarily blood and for me it rarely is. Family are the ones who are there no matter what. Thanks guys for being family. I’m honored to have you all in my life.
Well everything was better this time but still no power. They are saying Thursday night. We have a generator now so it’s not too bad at all. But it still sucks. Not sure if we will work this week. And Rob is definitely out for a bit so more struggle but as I always say. It will be ok. It always is. So for now we carry on….
So it is definitely here. Everywhere is without power again. But somehow we still have it. I’m sitting on my rv and it’s rocking a bit. It’s pretty crazy out there. Trees down all over leesville again. I’m just hunkered down. As I say that something just hit the rv. Jesus this is not cool. More to come
So it’s been raining all day. I’m laying in my bed and it sounds pretty crazy already. The winds are around 30 mph and my rv is shaking just a bit. Not too bad right now. I think I’ll take a nap 😴
I’m trying to get my businesses up and running. The first one is paparazzi $5 jewelry. The second is my potions. All natural items. Anywhere from essential oil roll ons to bath soak with dried flowers. The third of course is my tarot readings and birth charts. The name of my business is Faerie Dust. Trinkets , Potions, and Reflection. I will have links to all of them on this website and you can email anytime at email@example.com. Stay tuned.
Yay!!!! It’s the month of the witch. Stay tuned for more info…
Well it happened. I turned 49. Had a great birthday. My sweet Rob bought me a Celtic love knot necklace, made me a steak dinner Friday night and bought me some cool things. A big blue blanket for the couch, purple spray paint for my door and a visit to the chiropractor. All of my kids wished me a happy day. My daughter Adriana took us to dinner and brought gifts. I got to spend time with them and the cute boys. Watched football and my packers won!!!! So now On to the next year. I want to motivate and be ready for 50 with better eating exercise and overall health. It’s a new moon In a couple days so I will be setting intentions.
Well tomorrow I will be 49. Wow. That seems so old. But somehow I still feel young. Now granite in some ways I feel it. But honestly I love my life and where I am. My kids are all out on their own and the relationships I have with them are amazing. I truly feel like I accomplished something really big with them. They are all doing so well and growing and learning soooo much. I feel that I have accomplished a big achievement regardless of the reasons they are all amazing. I believe I have created my legacy. I have many years to continue teaching them and loving them but at least I know I have done good so far. I hope you all know how much I love you and am proud of you. Thanks for letting me continue to be your mom.
Well since the storm I haven’t had much time to write. Me and Rob made our 1 year. My granddaughter Irena turned 4. Grace graduated basic and is now in Monterey California. Work is going good. And I’m just steady fixing my little rv up. Today is Mabon. Sunday is my birthday and Stella is getting spayed tomorrow. Life is going pretty good. Well for now I want to go celebrate my holiday and relax….
Looking for a way to celebrate Mabon, the second harvest Sabbat? Read on for some great ideas for you and your family to observe the autumn equinox.
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Well our power is back on. I will be headed home in 30 minutes to put my home back in order. It’s been a long 10 days. From the fear of having no home to almost dying from carbon monoxide poisoning to living in the back room of the VCOA with our dogs and cat. To finally getting to go home. I’m truly thankful for everyone that helped us out and making it a comfortable enough 19 days. And I’m truly sorry to those who weren’t as lucky as us. So let’s get back to normal….ok j/k. Let’s get back to life.
Well, Here we are recovering from yet another set back. It’s ok though, these are the things that make us strong. Power is up in alot of places. Leesville is almost fully restored. some of Anacoco is restored. Hornbeck, still waiting the ETR is Sunday. This month for me will be rebuilding and renewal. preparation for the final months of 2020. So…….Let’s do this!!!!
Well it’s day 6. Got a shower today. Cold but absolutly the best shower I’ve ever had. Getting used to the homeless thing. I’m just glad we have somewhere to sleep with ac. Hopefully just 2-3 more days til power is back on. Well gonna go chill for a while.
So we are on our way to Alexandria to find gas and some hot food. This is definitely a nightmare. But I’m so glad to have this car with awesome ac. We are under a heat advisory for the next 2 days. Of course right now……really. Still no real plans on where we are gonna stay. Hopefully our power will be on by the end of the week like they say. We will probably just hop around until then. Well wish us luck.
So the above is a real thing and very dangerous. As Ive said robs parents got a generec installed to power their entire house. Lights went out generec came on. It’s been running since Thursday morning at around 2:30. We stayed there Thursday and Thursday night. I had a bit of a headache Friday when I woke up but we left and went to help friends and family around noon. We got home about 8-9. As soon as we got back my head started hurting again. I slept Friday night and I can’t remember much at all of Saturday except I was sick and my head was still really hurting. This morning rob really felt something was wrong. He also felt bad. He made me get up and go outside to the car to see if getting out of there helped. I was confused and really sick. We went to the medic station in Anacoco. My vitals were ok. They sent fire dept out and the house was saturated at 200 which is highly dangerous. Apparently the tank was located too close to the house and the fumes were going right in the house through the ac. We left and came to town where there is limited ac and no poison. Damn. We are very lucky.
So we all made it but everything is a mess. There are trees down everywhere and power lines twisted in ways I can’t even believe. I will post a few pictures on here of some of the damage. The biggest bummer is that our power is out Indefinitely. Soonest will be a week but more likely 3 weeks. My rvs are perfect which is a miracle. So now we clean up and wait for power.
It’s 2:30 in the morning. The rain and wind has just started to hit us here. The power already flickered off and on a few times. I’m sitting in the living room debating whether to go out and see what’s going on. But as I sit here I can hear things in the wind. Probably won’t go out. Lol. It made landfall about an hour and half ago. Well that’s what’s happening here. I’ll be back….
Well it’s a bit past 8:30. It’s pretty calm outside and it’s a nice Wednesday night. Wait…we have about 4 hours until Hurricane Laura makes landfall about 90 miles south of us. Right now it is a category 4 storm. But honestly, only 7 mph away from a category 5. We have gotten everything of value and things that can’t be replaced out of our rvs and have come about 500 feet away to Robs parents house. We are staying here tonight. It’s supposed to be a really bad storm. We are on the dirty side of the eye so most of the wind damage will happen here. We are completely prepared to wake up in the morning and not have our rvs anymore. It’s gonna be a long night. I will keep everyone as informed as I can. If you are in the same path be safe…..
Had a great day with my friend tiny and his kids. Also got to see an old friend from like 8 years ago. It was a great day.
Spending the day on Toledo bend in a pontoon boat with my dear friend tiny and his family. It’s a perfect day for it.
Vinyl plank is better than vinyl sheeting. Porcelain is better than ceramic. On countertops quartz is better than granite.
Tonight is the new moon in Leo ♌️. I will be doing a simple ritual using a candle in a bowl of water with a pinch of salt. Meditation on the inner spiritual self is key. What is it I want in my life? How do I achieve this? I will write it out with more answers as they come to me. I will get in touch with my goddess and listen for wisdom. I will pull a tarot card and give my intention to the earth for powerful guidance. So mote it be. As the moon goes dark tonight you have a blank slate what will you do with it.
This song I just love. It’s from the show Star. One of my favs.
I was and am an addict. This song was very relevant to me at one time. I’ll never forget the moment that I was listening to this song and it hit me hard. It wasn’t too long after that night I was arrested for possession of methamphetamine and locked up for awhile. I lost everything that night but on the other hand I gained my life back.
Music is soooo essential to me. If you wanna know about me listen to the lyrics of the songs I listen to. I’ll try to leave a few songs for y’all when I can. Soooo this week hmmmmmm
Friday night we went to the lake for a party. Had fun watches the sun set. First time I’ve been to the lake this year. Saturday went and hung out with Becca and Jesse. Love those 2. Today just hung around house cleaned and had a quiet day. Did a bit of decorating and mostly enjoyed being home. Pictures to follow
Being Wiccan has changed my life sooooo much. It’s such a beautiful craft. I’ve found a peace and inner joy that I have never had. I want to share that peace with everyone but also keep mine. Blessed be!!!
Well my dear sweet Deandra and Jimmy finally did it. They got married yesterday. They have been together for 10 years. It was a very nice quaint ceremony. We really enjoyed it. Pictures to follow. Also got to talk to my grace tonight. She called for a few minutes. She sounded great. I’m so glad. It was a pretty great week. Work is good and I’m starting to get the swing of it all. We watched Captain Phillips tonight. I never get sick of that one. It’s sooooo good if any of y’all haven’t seen it you must. Well day is done and I’m going to relax. Spent the day cleaning. Here’s to a new week.
This is my Goddess.
PERSEPHONE was the goddess queen of the underworld, wife of the god Haides (Hades). She was also the goddess of spring growth, who was worshipped alongside her mother Demeter in the Eleusinian Mysteries. This agricultural-based cult promised its initiates passage to a blessed afterlife.
Persephone was titled Kore (Core) (the Maiden) as the goddess of spring’s bounty. Once upon a time when she was playing in a flowery meadow with her Nymph companions, Kore was seized by Haides and carried off to the underworld as his bride. Her mother Demeter despaired at her dissappearance and searched for her the throughout the world accompanied by the goddess Hekate (Hecate) bearing torches. When she learned that Zeus had conspired in her daughter’s abduction she was furious, and refused to let the earth fruit until Persephone was returned. Zeus consented, but because the girl had tasted of the food of Haides–a handful of pomegranate seeds–she was forced to forever spend a part of the year with her husband in the underworld. Her annual return to the earth in spring was marked by the flowering of the meadows and the sudden growth of the new grain. Her return to the underworld in winter, conversely, saw the dying down of plants and the halting of growth.
In other myths, Persephone appears exclusively as the queen of the underworld, receiving the likes of Herakles and Orpheus at her court.
Persephone was usually depicted as a young goddess holding sheafs of grain and a flaming torch. Sometimes she was shown in the company of her mother Demeter, and the hero Triptolemos, the teacher of agriculture. At other times she appears enthroned beside Haides
Well here we are in August. Life is happening all around us. This month is the time to lay low and soak up what we have learned so far this year. It’s hot so we stay inside but let us reflect and absorb things and get ready for the fall and holidays. Namaste.
Well I’ve picked myself up from the negativity and am back on track. AND……I bought a new car. Brand new car 9 miles on it when I got in it to drive. I can’t believe I was able to do it. 4 years since my life fell into shit and I have rebuilt this much. I’m super proud of myself. I’ll post pics in a bit.
Well we are at the end of another week. Sometimes I feel like I’m fighting negativity in my own little world. It’s hard to ignore when it’s close to home. It’s true what they say about negative overpowering positive. It’s easier to be drug down than to lift others. It’s all part of the journey just a part that is not fun. I’ve come too far to get pulled down. Well for now I will not fall into the muck and I will rise up and carry on.
Wow is it ever hot 🥵. Normal Louisiana in July. Trying to do some organizing and cleaning up 🧹. 2 things I hate about Louisiana July and August. Week 2 of the new job and I’m still enjoying it. I’m learning a lot about floors. It’s actually pretty cool stuff. I just need to watch lots of videos to learn everything I can. Gonna go help my sweet sister in love paint later and maybe go visit marge. I miss her. Well back to work.
Well here I am again saying happy birthday to my youngest a day late. The reason she isn’t here. She at basic. My grace turned 18 yesterday. 10 years and 2 days after my first my sweet baby was born. She was born at ft Carson Colorado. A scheduled c-section. She was born at 830 am weighing in at 6lbs 12 oz same as Brandon. She has also grown up to be a beautiful smart and amazing woman. I’m again so proud to be her mom I love you grace
Well 28 years ago I gave birth to my first child Brandon Micheal. He was born at home with a midwife. It was amazing. I was pretty much a single mom with him for his first few years. All of that story later. What I can say is that Brandon has been through a lot in his life. Despite all the struggles and challenges my little boy has grown into a wonderful and awesome man. I’m so proud of him and all he has accomplished. I am so lucky to have him as my son. I love you Brandon. You make me a better person. I’m honored to call you my son. Happy Bithday 🎂
Well we had a great day yesterday. Lots of pool time friends family awesome food and tons of fireworks. It was great. All followed by that beautiful full moon.
Well it has been a wonderful week. New job is absolutely awesome. Got my first paycheck at my beginning rate and it was quite a bit more than I was getting. The job is way less stressful and my experience is paying off. I’m super happy with my decision. So today we are going to a friends house for swimming bbq and fireworks later. Also it’s a full moon tonight so this is gonna be a great and fun day. Pictures to follow.
Well I’m glad this week is over. On to a new chapter. We went to dinner last night to say bye to Grace. She left today 😢. I also packed up my office at the law center. I’m ready to see what this new job has in store for me. Well I must get ready for bed and make sure I have everything ready. Here are a couple pics of my Gracie
Well as I said before big change in my life. I have changed jobs in the midst of all of this. I will no longer be a legal secretary. I took a pay raise to run a flooring store. It’s what is best for my pocket right now. I won’t go into detail but I just know I need to be somewhere else now. I have loved my job and the people I work with and my clients. Some of whom I now consider friends. It wasn’t an easy choice but one I had to make. Wish me well I start Monday. Until then I have to say goodbye to my little girl Grace. She leaves tomorrow for basic training. I’m so proud of her but tonight’s dinner will be hard.
Well without saying much the next few days will be extremely difficult for me. Big decisions and moves. Do we ever know if our decisions are the right ones? That is what life is about I suppose taking chances that we think will be lucrative and hope we r right. I will be listening to my deities and doing a reading. So with that said I hope you all have a wonderful day.
Well life is very busy right now. Trying to get stuff started. Work and home. My grace leaves Sunday for basic training. I’m so very proud of her. But will miss her terribly. I also started taking CEU classes again. The first one I’m taking is on goal setting. I have lots of aspirations for the next couple years. And really want to get to a place where I can work at home. Lots of hard work but I know it will pay off.
Well today is a chaotic day for me. Mentally. So currently I don’t speak to my father. He has never really been a father to me. I know he’s done the best he can but it still sucks. I’ve made the choice that instead of letting it and him poison my life I have stepped away to keep the negativity out of my life.
I’ve had a few other men I’m my life I have considered to be dads. The first was Mark. He was my fill in moms husband. He was a very strong presence in my life for a while. Unfortunately his addictions landed him in prison. Second was Les my moms husband of 25 years when she passed. We were never really close but I do love him. I will call him today.
Third is Bill. He is my ex husband Shauns dad. He has been my favorite person. He came to live with us in 2013. He met a wonderful woman Tammy. Eventually they bought a home and got married. Even tho Shaun and I are no longer together they are still very dear to me. I consider him a dad for sure. So a quick shout out to Bill. Happy Father’s Day. Love your face.
So this is a story about 2 girls trying to be cute. First of all meet marge. We both work in the office. Both for Katie. Marge also works for Wes. But usually it’s always the 2 of us there no matter what. We started out butting heads. We are both very different. Now we get along really well. She is a dear friend to me. So the one thing we have in common is shoe size and our love for cute comfy shoes.
So we both got to work at the same time. Rob dropped me off today cuz he needed the car. He walked me in and as he was walking back out marge had gone before him to get stuff from her car. All I heard was OMG are you ok. She had stepped wrong on a stone and went down on her hands and knees. By the time I got out there she was sitting with her legs straight out. After a few minutes Rob helped her up. She ripped the shoes off and said here you take them. She had flats In Her car. Now the shoes were hella cute so what did I do? Put them on of course. They felt very comfy and easy to walk in. Yay!!!!
So I wore them all the way til almost lunchtime. I came back behind the main desk where I work with a stack of papers in my hands. I was standing there talking to marge. Next thing I know I somehow stepped backwards into a crack in the floor and went straight backwards. I like to think it was very graceful. Almost did a backwards somersault but never dropped the papers. When I finally settled into the seated position with my legs out ( the same position I found marge in). All I could do is laugh hysterically. Marge was standing in the other side of the desk with her mouth open and laughing at the same time. Needless to say we both took Motrin to make it through the day. Tomorrow will be interesting. What happened to the shoes??? She took them home back to her daughter where they came from. LOL. They were referred to as the devil shoes for the rest of the day.
So We were outside visiting with my daughter and her friends. Right next to door I have a big plant. I glanced over and saw a little dragonfly just sitting on the top of the plant. I of course started talking to it. It is after all my spirit animal. Well this sweet thing just sat there staring at me. We had a little conversation and I put my finger out and she jumped on and let me hold her for a while. I kept talking to her in awe. So beautiful. She kept coming to me and sat with me numerous times on my finger. Rob also reached out and she sat on his too. It was such a beautiful and special moment. When a dragonfly sits on your finger it’s a sign of good luck. So very awesome. Life is full of precious memories like this. We just have to pay attention.
Today was my mom and her husband Les’ anniversary. When she died in 2011 it was 25 years they had been married. Today is also 9 months that me and Rob have been together. So happy 9 months love.
It seems there just isn’t enough time in the day to get stuff done. I always have so much to do and I always used to be so good at getting it all done. My goal this weekend is to accomplish stuff and get organized again. So I can get stuff I need to do done daily. I have so many things I want to accomplish. So with that being said…I’m ready to go.
I believe our loved ones can come back to send signs of their presence once they are gone. This happened to me the other day. I have a Fitbit. I was scrolling through the watch faces to select for free for a background. I came across a residual face from Mother’s Day. It had a saying on it with pink flowers 🌸 about your mom In Heaven. it caught my attention so I stopped and the date that was on this particular sample was February 21. That is my moms birthday. It struck me as if she were speaking to me. It was really cool. We were very close and I miss her a lot. I felt her presence and it was a comfort. I also have her dog missy. She became mine after my mom died. She is 13 years old now and has been acting strange for the past week or so. I think she is at the end and somehow the watch face was a sign that she would be gone soon. I wish I had the answers to all of these things. But I do know what my heart says. I feel she was telling me to be prepared for missy to pass on soon. Anyway. I wanted to share that